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As soon as he arrived, she would be able to make her exit.
Take time for herself. Have a moment of calm.
She was oh-so-tired. She urged him on.
“On my way,” he said. “A few more minutes and I’ll come.”
She waited.
The minutes then the hours ticked their slow molasses of seconds. Time puddled, sticky, in her mind.
Around her the demands of life continued and her body obeyed. Her hands found zippers and did and undid buttons and washed dishes and stirred pots and hung wet linens and kneaded dough and bandaged a skinned knee and broke up fights and interrupted arguments. Her mouth managed to answer questions she did not remember being asked.
At some point her eyes no longer rose to check the clock. The sinking feeling curled up and took residence inside her gut.
She fed. She bathed. She put to bed.
She rocked. She soothed. Not knowing what she said.
As dark deepened and the night grew long, she knew.
He would not arrive.
There will be only more to overcome.
Na'ama Yehuda 
Sounds like there’s a lot more to this tale! She sounds so wiped out. She was leaving as soon as he got there, so was she his housekeeper? She didn’t seem to worry about him having an accident. Intriguing beginning!
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Leaving … or taking a breather? Who knows? Ah, so much to speculate about … 😉 Thanks for reading and commenting!
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I am exhausted for her. And hope she finds a way to make time for herself without him. He ain’t coming back and he ain’t worth it.
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Yes, I hope the same for her. Whatever the reason he isn’t coming back, I hope he finds a way to make time for herself, and that she gets support. Because none of us can do it all alone all the time. xoxo
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No kidding. Though millions have managed… not a fun thing regardless.
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Yes, many do. It occurs to me that she may be depressed, which makes the day to day more than she feels she can manage. Poor thing. I hope she gets some help…
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Yes. She does sound it… A scary thing.
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Yeah. Too many people are suffering with it. And their kids, too, by-proxy.
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Indeed.
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xoxo
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I feel sorry for her. I hope that she’ll find a way to happiness
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Yes, I hope she does, too. One wonders if she is depressed to boot…
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Yes. That’s there too. It’s sad and terrifying. And not many can understand it.
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Alas, that’s true. While more understand depression that used to, it is still much misunderstood and there’s still – for too many – shame attached when there should be none. Help is a good thing to seek for those who feel overwhelmed. May we all be okay!
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You capture very well that stickiness of slow-ticking time and the need to keep occupied when waiting, waiting, and the final acceptance… grim
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Yes, though it is such a tired acceptance I worry for her …
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Mmm, I’m nodding.
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Yeah, I see your nod … 🙂
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Oh good 🙂
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🙂
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I sense she’s in an awful place and unable to move on. Will she? Only time will tell.
A little light relief!
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Indeed only time will tell … I hope for the better for her!
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